As most of the people who know me know, I prefer Alternative Music.
Until just recently, I had a Thursday routine with a friend that included going to dinner and a movie. The last couple of weeks or so of that routine part of the ads before the movie included a song by Sara Bareilles. The first time I saw the video- without listening to the words- I thought ok what a strange video.
Then I listened to the words. To say that they touched me is an understatement. I have already downloaded the song on iTunes and frankly, I'd love to make it my ring tone. It has become my mantra because for too long I have kept my mouth shut and not said what I wanted or needed to say because I was afraid.
Afraid of starting a fight. Afraid of causing a disagreement. Afraid of making someone mad.
I am done with that. Everything I have and need is within me and God. If me telling you how I really feel is going to run you off, then Goodbye and Good Luck. Because if I have to be who YOU want me to be and not who I want to be then YOU didn't really want ME in the first place.
I am enough. God is enough.
I don't need someone who makes me cower in fear, tremble with worry or live riddled with anxiety.
I need me. The ME that God wants me to be. The ME He needs me to be.
For three years, I have held me tongue to keep the peace. Except that I ended up feeling the opposite of peace.
From now on I am Brave.